it’s hard to be on all the time

to be o all the time , there needs to be the get past from effort into effortless activities , initially this effort seems to be present bc of the layers of comedians rjst have developed over us , we have to cut thru many illusions before we become in a flow more natural to ourself , as well as real with what is but first these illusions are harder to detect bc it’s a product of our minds so how can we or more so now this is past tense bc our consciousness did evolve from what it was to where it’s at today although i wouldn’t rule our timeline shifts on the same time, meaning that bc we are strongly influenced by our environment , some environments have minimum development , and this minimal updates affect people, in terms of their living and conditions , some people may not have the same rights and benefits as u and i do for instance , and they may receive or strictly live on hand me downs , so u know how important and unique ur identity is some don’t even get to have that whereas others traditions and customs don’t require such , not in the way that civilized nations ( what constitutes it) have , in a way ur environment is a possessor and ur the possessed, things have power to work itself thru u, in a way, like gods chosen little ones , who are in special communion with its worshippers, this compelling evidence has proven itself over and over that we are able to gather as much, and then work with what we got , and in the event that we are misled , bc lies and delusions can’t go on forever ,first of all we change , so in the case of the liar who changes , they aren’t in position to maintain all possible objrdirves as they have started with , hence the dissolution , in this stage people since into confusion , but ofc bc the inner separation is so strong , it “compels “ them even if ur not that religious , bc u seek relief, religion is a form of refuge , and so with our world as well, it’s our very own home, and what happens when we don’t feel safe in it ? we have moments of excess exhaustion due to all that which has long been conditioning us so consciousness cannot be maintained to be on all the time at this stage it goes into subconscious , in some cases even unconscious, it’s like there is a switch inside of u, lot flips on and off at intervals u can’t fathom understand due the experiencer so ur already cooking in it , like a good stew , but we become one eventfully and become abut more versed about our components, in a healthy environment what usually transcends is natural, u have ur own realm of existence , ur externally in harmony with all and everything ur conditioning is very much like of the healthy type much like muscle teeming or brain exercises ur exercise ur heart and soul too , there’s no extra layers of delusion or illusion ur not filling ur life with fake experiences or shallow conduct , for that reason u tap into the natural flow effortlessly it’s already a origin of habit in u ,

we may simulate this sort of flow but to maintain is a different objective bc we can truly memorize objectives we do this same with the mental and emotional avenues as well, so we become too entrenched in habits almost lost within it , but presence is key into mindfulness towards smth bc then we are aware of what transpires in it and then change ourself accordingly, we can see that the systems are like a machine , which prevents us from being timely with matters , or efficient in our own self experience , where the simulated effect of being virtuous has taken root and built its own momentum, but u also see how we become machinated right ? so u can act virtuous in the store front and behind closed scenes work in a way to place people in places u want them at , and do things u want to happen, and not think twice about what ur doing and as to why, where is consciousness then? and presence ? if we say we can reach such states of virtue simply by reciting lines , then would that bring us the reality we wish to happen? or is it smth that remedies an absence of an action? this mechanical action already knows its doing smth wrong, so it hides it ahead of time and maintains the facade of virtuous kindness ,where consciousness foes is very much like what happens to us at night when we dream , ur here but not here except here it happens with ur eyes open, it goes some where lost in thought , and if the thought is convincing that one can it utilise one’s five senses properly then one begins to get possessed by almost like an idea but we don’t always seedy when smth is wrong we subconsciously may know it , but we can’t exactly act on this knowledge for some reason, perhaps bc the event of being possessed prevents a person free will, and ability to choose for oneself, one’s own reality, but make it seem like it , u heard the voice of god, u know joan of arc , u know the cases of the schizophrenic , it’s like in the matrix , agent smiths , take of shape and form, taking over the host, the parasite, conform

it’s said that we get these imprints and the we can’t change them or refine them or absolve them but purify them , and make the best as in; transcend bc change is inevitable, and when u think u have free will , there appears ur chance to utilise ur own power, if possessed people don’t know but do things out of order and then in a sloppy way own up to it, and they are indeed always abandoned once the task is complete, we have cultural possessions too, we don’t realize most everything that acts as righteous is a form of grifting bc u see how frivolous it is , to maintain the facade of faith in smth u know is up to no good and also makes u pay for it, if we truly knew we wouldn’t want to be conditioned and pay for our own conditioning , not if it harms us , and compels us to do great evil, just to maintain its false appeal , some of these establishments are archaic they haven’t change a little , if the change has took place it must be towards its eventual decay so that the necessary purifications take place , and the event transcends but we don’t know off which is which , a death process is often seen as purification method and one in line with ascension and knowing our world , there are many ways to die in it, u know ur gonna die or can be today now maybe this week or five years from now , that much is a guarantee , but also at the same time there is a dread like experience , we feel this in shifts in our perception regards passage of time , and the many versions of it , it’s both subjective and objrdirves basis , this is prevalent in dream states, a moment can feel like a lifetime , and vica versa, and when we feel such possessions , including social norms that are up to no good, bc they flip flop between their belief objrdirves which go between self interest , and appear as kind and self righteous to world public , in any of our feelings, we get to split ourself between our internal and external connectivity to the experice called life, we may not notice this bc consciousness often gets strained , when it’s confronted with brick wall of understanding into itself , this fragmentation happens when pelle become too secular in their belief patterns and then project that towards others in action form, such states of being animated to , being out of character , or compelled bc smth that previously got ur trust ,even if its subconscious level or at a very subtle way or form, has now utilises that trust to get u to do smth without much self reflection or that u mistake the voice with it, and u say ah i’m familiar with this real good feeling , and in the past it came very easy, but we aren’t stiffly dependent on voices alone plus it takes years maybe decades to really cook into it there must be apparence of other manifested conditions to complement its culpability, in sleep we rest , but in periods of where consciousness is missing, then what takes its place ?

it’s almost like only after u do the wrong thing u get relief but this is where the possessor is done with u we think bc there’s all this self help to get to know urself that it’s easy to find remedies on things of internal conditions worse if it’s been brewing for decades, u may mistake these states and still find no relief, ok so let’s see the difference between someone who intentionally does wrong and one who is simply possessed a person who is a product of their environment who alone couldn’t counter it so it’s said we can’t be on all the time, applies here , we have only so much to acquire and work with , although, we must consider these different times for things have changed we now have vast array of data avail for all and which has already changed us, with the exception some people in some places may still be prevented this but they may “ick up on it rather subconsciously” even though externally their body and life works differently that by the outlook of such we may immediately run assumptions that they are either primitive or “behind” , have u noticed how cold some kindness is ice cold, and u may wonder , if it’s ur own heart that can’t feel or it’s smth inthe atmosphere, in the same way we can misplace our feelings , we tend to do this with thoughts too that it’s essential to look both sides of understanding before we cross the road of logic , we try to make sense of things but our thoughts are out of array at times , these are subtle form of being possess where consciousness lightly steps out and comes back in, u wonder our and wonder in , ur presence goes elsewhere and at times ur triggered into ur alternate selves , and u may think that ur alone in the process, its these interior thought processes that keep coming in and out they seek a dip that u might hav w previously had but have actively improved so ur dip can only go so far then it tapers out, maintains its plateaus until it neutralizes on time, and then another opportunité events may challenge this dip and each time, ur improving from it , bc ur consciously aware of al the processes that are coming to ur purview effortlessly without mistaking one voice for another

the difference between thoughts and words is that we can measure their integrity by their action form , and u wanna possess the right to make it seem for world public , to do greet wrong in broad daylight and then try to pass it off as good logic , is indeed a magicians trick, but it doesn’t always mean it’s working either think emperor with no clothes on, and then all of a sudden , everything is in clear form, it’s up to us in our self support that some of these objrdirves are even possible, they give us insight as to where we wish to relinquish self control, and where we need to take full responsibility on objrdirves concerning our conduit within the world of strong conflict, if u notice , there’s strong emphasis on this world both being animalistic, where we succeed each other to survive ourself, and this can be thru ill logic, and then the act of civility, the excess of productivity for capital and good well being of healthy conduct , surely we can take the gold and improve on those that may no longer serve us, but we have to be present and conscious in it , and u can see the strong symbolism when only a handful of people get to determine the fate and livelihood of world full of people, is missing in majority of consciousness where the information and experience each may bring strongly can im wove our lives , where we won’t overwork and then under realize or that eventually we too must cave in , for resistances can only take us so far , even that which is thrown at people in excess, builds within , and things go in but they don’t come out, bc we can’t turn what we learn and understand and turn to wisdom is not translatable in our life, this is what gurdjieff says when things don’t get crystallized , and that we have to keep repeating events , and we also maintain supply of coarse stuff , for spiritual grind , which is what wears people out , and causes the consciousness to step out , others are just too dependable , to things of addictive kind, then that becomes their crutch , bc u can’t fully understand why such perfect beings as we are are also being prevented from our full potential as other perfect people who govern over us , and keep us on the down low, then it’s no wonder why some people can be like weapons of mass attack, bc they may mistake this as a relief , respite , it’s smth worth thinking about when it comes to what sort of voices are occupying our minds , worth mentioning that some of these possessed we people are running nations