all these opposites

of taking and giving , of coming and going , all the experiences of such exchanges we have with in ourself and the reality that surrounds us, can give us a sense of this feel between knowing and unknowing , living and being, in terms of our action and periods of rest, figuring things out actively in our cognitive minds and then erring things rest, and marinate so we are infused with truths rather than constructed out of our inner architect , which comes after , first we are infused, we may not be aware or we forget , our initial stages of having been here we do not know bias, or trouble, for desperation, or cause to be hardened, or heart broken, those are acquired later, indication of which can cause a split between inner states. of compartmentalizing it’s often said, to put it aptly, having secrets from urself that’s not secrets bc u take them.c and put them in a inner broom closet, and then lock the door and throw away the key, and if anyone asks what’s beyond the door u can always say what door . u don’t see anything there, u simply refuse to acknowledge it, even though u put it there, we can truly convince ourself that we can outsmart our smart self, we think we are cunning and decisive to first alter our self with such states of division, to deny what is is akin to close one’s eyes to life’s hardship, because life is full of jt as we do too make it harder for each other because of the induction to reality, as troublesome as its been, is quite personal, hence the ridicule to our past states of innocence u can look at ur older , or in this case , much younger pictures of urself and remember the time in which u had ur shape of worldview, all was wonderful with more possibilities and the concerns all to real but these are quite alright next to much bigger occurrences that can really cause impede.c such as the historical context we read about, and the pictures and potentials that we see, but we aren’t made of glass we wouldn’t be affected if we run across a story occasionally, we would be concerned , it would still have the degree of impact for generation of enough care to pursue and do smth about it, with the intent to eliminate suffering ur not supposing unknown whether if this person deserved it, but when say ur profession requires from u, too look at, various data of such content in the context of which has a particular pattern, or the context is repetitive states of induction of pain and suffering it may cause u to collect overtime these long standing effects that are harder to shake off and n this works the same, to alter our consciousness, effectuate our decision making abilities, for we may feel stunted, in terms of our growth, where all of a sudden, the states of panic and worry, take centre stage, and the growing uncertainty towards a future that may not be as collective , for in parts or even whole could entirely be threatened, we may not notice these .. gratitude moments, bc they come of standard, like suns rays or every day that comes about.c it’s assuring to think u will have ur cup of coffee and sit by the window and watch the sun rise every morning, the growing concern is to be more in the body, and stuck in the mind, operating strictly on the survival mode but in the mental realm, more so than one’s own personal vicinity, ur own private realm, and these mental agitations causes more delusion in the reality, bc ur not akin to urself , have compartmentalized parts that are offensive, or have paired with in urself a certainty towards reality that is not as it appear and that ur conveyance of factors are also not in line with what actually is, for this creates twists on the road if under sensing, and can take the help of others for its undoing , for its necessary to undo binds that confine us, and cause us much suffering, where the way way out has long been thru warfare, all forms of it exist today

we don’t talk about it because it’s forbidden, and then once we passed the forbidden stage for we couldn’t overcome it any longer, as the the rectors begin to act like phenomena among us, we permitted speech but also a strategic occurrence took place in the form of smoke and mirrors where words bounced off their reflection causing infection of thought processes, as well as split mentality between two objrdirves, where relativity formed some type of bridges between certain thought processes as we see example of how certain words can invoke certain memories for instance or can trigger certain states we don’t understand at a intellectual level but feel deep at heart, the feeling to that is akin to having dry throat all of a sudden ur eyes water and there is a smoke like warm feeling oozing from ur heart as in the form of an ancient cry, origin of which is so far distant that u cannot intellectually grasp if it’s truth or essence but it’s also very much there in its purest form, but not all things hidden from us are that further away, it just is part of a continuity that has long been abandoned , but also, not really, bc we can’t truly separate ourself from our truth or self, we can only project abject versions of a self that is much smaller than the grand self that’s comprehensive and whole, all of which makes us who we are they is also in its continuum stage bc it and therefore we never end, we may see this like the changes we go through, in life, many stages , evolution of the self , of changing faces , our needs also may change , so is with our thought processes, today we may feel this way tomorrow that, we are multi faceted thus, and cannot easily be convened by mere few statements but in the contrary our systems do precisely that, an understandable point of view suggest the work load, and the counter point points to all levels of poverty and loss , and aimlessness in life where the passionless pursuers then to multiply, and are systemically too many, supported in some cases, and in others , elaborated fritter upon, we seem to have more to do with controlling self, that is human , but split, that is always other people, and never ourself, bc we either don’t know our true self, or worse, we think we do, with the latter is very concrete u think u have arrived, ur stuck nowhere in a prism like occurrence , constantly, vibrating the same frequencies bc then there’s maintenance of states of outcome independent in nature , while this may apply to personal habituations , to apply this artificially upon the whole, in a forced way can be detrimental to each personal personal trajectories and ofc this might not have had been available in the prior stages of human development since due to the darker times we had to endure in the coming of understanding into some type of our nature that allowed all that we are part of possible by todays standard, if u have noticed the colour of our perspective towards events that occur do transmit some type of frequency that emits it from somewhere else, some people led by us, others understood, and then the process in which where we combine the known and he unknown tends to provide smth a bit out of our control, even to a collective degree, this unknown has or might have had shown itself in the prior development of human nature in the types of those phenomena which we now completely mistake for the real or essential of continuity in the same mannerism bc we feel as if this serves us in some self protective way, and that depends on the direction in which such conveyance is made, bc it’s not perceived the same from all other directions , then perhaps the issues aren’t actually that deep, but there could be some depth there , there could be a collective vein here and there that throbs in agony but we each of us perceive this pain rather differently

we may strike our consciousness right at differ occasion , knowing full well without full knowledge , to sense that smth is right nor concerning in a way that perks up our interest and further in its direction, and there are a ton of occurrences that tire us on the daily, around the clock, we have more issues that go backwards than forwards , with a ton of stagnation in between states of occurrences where the next possible occurrence also sets us back in a little bit by little, we don’t try to collectively come to terms with the issues concerning such, where we may adhere more within the system , of that which can serve us, or an idea that has been on a roll, trying to get the actualization of smth that might have took root from the past but only to transcend it based on by the viewpoint of the few, to finally alter it in a way that it will not continue to arise to work to challenge up its own self advances, or to constantly “confront” those objrdirves, while robs the job , allegedly, off those who done u wrong, but much too refuse to acknowledge let alone restore any of it, where the passage of time becomes like a garden that haphazardly grows and u call that life bears fruit when u give it time, but time alone doesn’t do this there is rain, and induction of the wind and whatever it may bring, if the conditions are right and even then, the haphazard in growth suggests diversity unless u planted specific seeds, even then u may face some challenges , and this demonstrates the same, bc we think certain occurrences are stand alone , all on their own, and for specific purpose , but there’s meditations that take place proper to development of smth in manifest form, not always isolate, often connected bc they can versus why we know, in terms of such network of operations that must cross paths much like collègues who pass u in fluorescent hallways in a way we fear humanity but we also cannot without it, we depend so much on social interactions , but at the same time, to find the need to get away where people are not, is same for all especially for those , among us whose diverse experience differ greatly, often barred from speech, and looked up as terrorism to counter society and civility, u must not speak in such tone bc u might disturb the peaceful, but if truths can disturb ur peace was it even real? and now we are on the same cross roads to chuck the baby with the bath water or to not ? that is the question, perhaps we are too stifled of organic ideas, due to sidling of ourselves via strangling each other, it’s possible that we are missing some serious key players within the world front, that is a composite of everyone by the way for those who may think what? me? i’m just an ordinary person , my life has not much impact , almost invincible, only useful in body, hands many, or reciting specific lines in repeat, as i’m often told to do, for my survival in bliss , or peace where peace is a seed, just looking for a cultivatable grounds to germinate and be more efficient , likely, or external ,and it’s always a far fair and place, our collective expectations in wait, in agony, getting worse on the daily bc things tend to decompose they rot building gets old, pipes and wires get worn out over time , jobs make new rules ur kicked out all of a sudden it’s always u who must change and change hard, breaks apart and be put back together , it’s better to get worse before u get better even though the task is quite very simple we make everything spiritual but in a very dogmatic way, and then we wonder, who am i, we go back to the prior sense of self of returning to a state of innocence but with memories, wisdom, knowledge, ideas, experiences that also shaped urself in a way that u cannot deny their existence even if u tried, at some point we sit with our true self, or we don’t , we reject that too, constantly filing the room with others , if there is noice hustle and bustle then we can run from this; having to face our truer self and truth and our self in the same room without fighting each other , or we think we can, therefore we oscillate maintain lower states of self, attracting trouble where there need to be one, and causing much fright in others life bc if we aren’t having an argument with ourself then we need to have argument with others, but , given that our advantage may permit from us to uniquely design many other forms of how one can practice art of having arguments, bc others may not notice that ur fighting them, that is to ur advantage, that is if they don’t know, then ofc it’s better for u to secure a win before u even begin then it’s easier to take such chances upon others, but sometimes anomalies do happen, and then slip ups also accumulate, causing instabilities in the system and at first its convict fro say the least we do occasionally have troubles as recorded from the prior times which could facilitate genuine understanding but then it repeat and u see a pattern emerging and u notice there is strong stagnation in the learning process of some reflection of practices ,

at times we are left to our self, where we are confronted with many voices that may arise in the otherwise stillness and silence , some happen due to life changes, others changes in where it live, who u might surround urslf with, an adjustment period offers this profound silence, which is often profound with its abject profundity, we see the many objrdirves desirous in nature not of , attachment , but that which liberates the soul or takes it back to its origin which is ur home or the warm feeling of the sun, that ensuring guarantee of the earthly abound, bountiful animal kingdom bursting with diverse life, has tremendous healing qualities, where we context, and ground, where we give just our true self, a true gift indeed, with many skills and experiences under our belt , we are the prodigies who are born to walk the earth, but why the stifling? why do we feel inferior next to our kin? perhaps the reason to that comes from the distaste towards our collective past some who do knows theirs too week, but so not understand why they could be born within such lineage , while on the outside u must upkeep , and work to support ur lineage , on the inside , u wonder in ways of how u can rebrand ur clan in a way that’s gonna make it look nicer to the world, when especially we all get glimpses of the human past, it’s hard to tell where the responsibilities lie, when it comes to individual concerns but on the cold force , there could be determinable factors where we can track things done to their earlier occurrences , as well a paired interactions , all of which is attribute to our human nature which we pretend to not notice ? especially in our true self? that which we close behind the door and never look back, and this holds us back, the chains that we place upon the door, where this event took place, and we wish we didn’t know or know too much or too well, but don’t know how to go about it, causing us much fright that means u gotta get tougher to overcome this tough life, but how much toughness is tough enough, and where do we draw the line? between chance of being abusers ourself, and being protective of ur lot? that one is still up for further discussions among the world of people but we must not get too comfortable with words only, a conversation stage eventually most move to an action form, but here we can assume that the limbo serves a purpose, while closing down avenue of self speak, if we don’t confront ourself and get away with it, then it’s easier to get away with running from others concerning our responsibilities and duties for the world and u do this precisely bc of the benefits that’s offered , u may think the world échange of such ideas don’t come with some type of imbalance , which we see more of, bc we look to who is reliable in terms of deciphering the world, and it’s workings , that why we try to find people , those of others , who will not thwart the mutual trust of words and what they truly represent , a merit in the integrity of mutual interactions is needed indeed, to not only set a pace that gets us out of our collective conundrums but also sets example , to facilitate more of the same in others who also in their ways , before to forge ways onto solving many issues that we enveloping us at all areas of our lives, which could potentially turn the disintegration process and to one where it is mutually beneficial on all fronts , as well as undoing any of the harm , with the exception that sadly we still can’t figure out how to bring back the dead nor can we go back in time or go backwards so our a fine become gentler here so is with our daily tentions and if we are in a position of great might, we may need or refer to community members those who can tell us what we need to hear not what we want to hear, or more blindness, so that we can get the help we need and overcome such afflictions , the tasks should excite us rather than feel daunting , u do notice the grand awakening ur stuck between a dark past and potential of future going either way, good or bad, demise or uprise , transcendence , or demise, all of these are part of where we are, a big task and challenge that we can utilise great care and even greater skill to overcome instead of cut corners, or repeat the past or assume that our afflictions are of normal, surely the history and human nature

has a lot of pitfalls , for its not supposed to be this way, so what u feel, in the abject reality to much suffering u too can tell the same u natural ness of human aggression even though we have perfected skill of normalizing it systemically, but u may also notice that we are still figuring things out which we never gave it a try to invest in all people and do things differently reveled to what we come to know, so to say, to know everything about the world and still love it wholeheartedly therefore care for it honestly, and which means all its inhabitants entirely, to the best of ur abilities ofc, we can’t sacrifice ourself to a point where we ourself become a liability, and which case systems do not notice when they break people they aren’t just a product and responsibility to the system they are responsibility to their family and friends and at the very least their colleagues and further dependencies upon the systems thereafter such as many of its abject resources geared to keep people low, and as far as changing of the material world is considered, its the grand existential issue that faces us all equally, for in the future great ecological changes may occur as we may not be aptly counter them, we will be forced to evade home , so things differently, as in , mass migrations, or other concerns, forcing us to chose between two objrdirves , either abandon each other, or try to work with each other without prior training which case things can also go two ways, either go in absolute chaos among esch other, or find some way towards harmony if we are all vested in the same outcome or we don’t have to wait till last minute, and try to work up some communication now, for what may avail us, and wait for us in near future , than try to take matters into our secular hands and think we can carry with of the world , in just one word, our own personal commands , which also bears one of two conundrums solution , either to make a big mistake , an oops moment where we end the human race once and for all, or we end up seldom four self our own mind in the progression of the human soul that supersedes all obstacles even though in the surface it may not seem like it, and in explicit form, as it often does, possess the quality of false apparences , but this too can lead us to our final end, we could however , work to challenge that now instead of test its ppl ability like a rebel against the universal forces that made this possible, u may stick ur fist into the air and say bring it on, and sure it does, sure it does and plenty